I
store fragrant memories of times gone by,
In
an inner recess of the deepest niche of my mind,
Once
in a while in a moment of self indulgence,
I
open that niche just a tiny bit,
Like
the thinnest sliver of the beautiful moon,
And
then the magic of that fragrant thought,
Like
the musk of a deer,
Fills
my being with momentary happiness,
Those
are vulnerable moments when I am true to myself,
I
open my emotional side where I am insecure,
So
I quickly slip back into the dull and faceless mask of indifference,
And
hide myself in an armour and distance myself
From
all those who love me and whom I love
8 comments:
Very beautiful
very nice
Aparna Lal Das said," I believe so! Sometimes that secret self lurks within you and you discover it with time. I feel there is certain part of U that you know is U and u don't share it with everyone. I would say no one is known by anyone in any relationship totally. It is only You that know yourself ... Sometimes even some parts of your self may be alien to you based on time, circumstances and influences!"
Very nice thoughts. So very true of each one of us.
A very beautiful poem, delving deep.
Neena Gulati
The more we open up, this secret self starts vanishing. It may come out through blogs by way of poems or prose or even comments
"So I quickly slip back into the dull and faceless mask of indifference,
And hide myself in an armour and distance myself
From all those who love me and whom I love"
My only question is why. Why hide at all if you are indifferent. Why do you choose to slip back, why not let the fragrant memories linger,Or is it still that fear of getting hurt in the process of moving away which makes you hide behind that self imposed armour? Nicely written but these questions remain.
Gulshan Dhingra said,"The term “secret self” generally applies to secret primary selves because the disowned selves are by definition kept secret. From our understanding, a secret primary self is a self that operates on a regular basis in our life like any other primary self but in this case we are unaware that it is operating. This makes it even more powerful, and difficult to uncover, than an ordinary primary self. A disowned self is always breaking through – as though it were breaking out of prison - and making us do things that we don’t ordinarily do. In contrast, the secret primary self is always operating.
An example of this would be a man who prides himself on being a kind, loving and giving person but behind the scenes he is always controlling people by being nice and yet has no idea that he is doing this. In this case control itself is the secret primary. This same man might have a secret inner patriarch filled with rules for proper behavior in him and others but consciously he has no idea it is active in his life on an ongoing basis. His family and friends may well know it, but the carrier of the secret self can remain blind to it for a lifetime."
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